Energy Currency

  Before I forget, let me count the ways I have:   taken an energetic quantum leap forward with major headwinds and resistance and literal blockages in my path.  freaked someone else out with my plans and did it anyway.  known my limits and pushed them over the edge. was told that I was mean, angry, scary and now know what they meant was that I am strategic, determined, consistent.   These qualities frighten others who don’t have these qualities.   celebrated my wins, reinforced my daily habits, and asked for help along the way.    From here I ask myself,  Where am I resisting forgiveness still?  Why become aware of misinformed programmed tendencies if I am not willing to take action?  Am I holding myself back?  Am I focusing too much on ‘their’ healing and not enough on my own?   Am I forgetting my own boundaries and ability to step away when I need to?  Have I avoided relationships that can actually help me mak...

 This week I witnessed Money Trauma big time.  A new CEO, who apparently didn’t understand the upside-down finances of their new business, received a fairly ordinary bank notification indicating “insufficient funds".  What happened next was shocking.    If you ever went to college btw or have kids - you’ve personally probably seen this notice before.  It’s normal.  Most people live paycheck to paycheck.  And occasionally- whoops - that auto debit from Amazon gets held up because it’s the beginning of the month and your credit cards and  rent just came due.    So instead of trying to understand the situation this CEO immediately starts yelling at ALL of the finance staff.    How could you let this happen?!    Why didn’t I know about this?!    You didn’t know about this - they replied?  THIS is why they hired you!  To fix the business.  So instead of the ...

  To thine own self be true  Allowance of space and time  You’ve built up the aptitude to do it but do you need to? Your identify is far greater than one may give you credit for  Your ancestors support you here and now  Step into the light and be seen for the work that goes beyond the veil  Your image does not convey the pain you have experienced and felt, yet it is still true and so are you Your true friends will emerge nonetheless to be seen as a path towards enlightenment  Challenged not by fiscal constraints of the mind, I say stand tall and will be seen, for the opportunities that outlay and present themselves are here for a reason  I know not what I could do but what I did do  Why now is any more difficult than before I know not  It is here and now that fortitude is necessary and perhaps always and beyond  Stand tall and do not let them knock you down  War strown victories do not compare to the essence required of one or ...

My heart falls into darkness amongst the sleeping rhododendron flowers spread upon the forest floor. Here the fairies fly freely and delight in joy at the gifts of the new moon.  Tears spinning beyond repair until breath itself is found to be nothing more than a glimmer of moonlight.  The wind beckons to find a home along the river edge as sparkles of hope dash downstream into forevermore.  The path is windy and uphill and slippery with mud and crushed dandelions. How can something so beautiful and magnificent be the bearer of such diminishing returns of truth and disparity?  I asked for this.  I paid the piper.  I sit challenged again and again and yet my unwavering response is always the same.  No, I will not bend to the servitude of imbalance, nor will I delight in the overwhelm of decision or the grief of remembrance.   Is there another such that I can understand and have mirrored back to me why this way is not documented to be read to c...

Today. On this Solstice.  Let us pause unto ourselves.  Even if we do not see the sun, we acknowledge the changing of seasons and the feel of the energy with reverence and respect and joy.  It is anew.  It is here.  We have waited and sat challenged again and again by the pressure of growth and rising and you.  You are here.  You have arrived.  It may not look or feel like you thought it would.  In fact, I know it doesn’t.  But it feels right.  It feels true.  It feels authentically you.  I think sometimes we expect the other shoe to drop, then it does  - again and again and again - and we stand corrected as if - yes, I can thrive even when all walls come crumbling down, and even when I don’t - as if magically we are supposed to always be positive and happy and joyful - and even when I don’t.  When I don’t stand in my power.  When I don’t believe in myself.  When I don’t take the walk or drink the wate...

To the woman I used to be, may you know your strength and remember always that you are loved.   To the woman I am becoming, may you know love, boundless freedom, and attract prosperity for all of eternity.  To the woman I am, may you be here now, just for today.  Traveling along this path we see many distractions, but more importantly see our prayers answered like never before.  Ask and you shall receive.  If you are getting lost in the sea of despair, ask yourself this - have I slept today?   Have I laid on the grass?  Have I allowed my song to grace my breath?  Has my breath entered my lower self and filled my belly full of light?  Have I laughed?   Moved my body?  Danced under the moonlight?   Expressed my dreams then burned them into oblivion?  Replenished my waters with love and desire? Have I cried, wailed and punched a pillow until I could do so no more?    Have I shown you that I ...