On your journey to Wealth, you will encounter the Three Illusions:

 The following is an excerpt from the book Energy Currency - Accessing the Codes of Wealth Consciousness for a Life of Financial Freedom* - By Christina, Spiritual CFO

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On your journey to Wealth, you will encounter the Three Illusions:  

The first - 

The Illusion of Security 

 

Next is the Illusion of Control.

Last is the Illusion of Separation.  

 

Signs you are facing the Illusion of Security. 

You’ve recently left your comfortable job for something that excites and maybe even scares you.   You realize there is tremendous learning in this bold move, and any pain or suffering that you underwent as a result of buying ‘security’ is quickly understood to not have been worth it.   You now have a lot more freedom/time/money/joy because you faced the Illusion of Security.  

Security can be defined as freedom from, or resilience against, potential harm caused by others or an outside event.  It can also mean to contain, or reference to an essential good.  As in the opposite of harm.  

Sounds pretty good, doesn’t it?   Protection from that which harms you.  A job can be a source of security.  As can a house.  A family. A relationship.  But eventually what happens with the job?  The house?  The family? The relationship?  The all too predictable house of cards?  One by one they fall down. And there goes your precious security.

Here’s another sign. 

Over many years, nothing happens with the job, the house, the family or relationship.  They don’t move.  Year in and year out they celebrate the same holidays, on the same day in the same house on vacation from the same job, maybe even in the same relationship.  Perhaps you highly value ‘security’ and ‘stability’ and as a result have learned to avoid spending too much, confrontation, change or big emotions.  You equate security with money in the bank and have spent many years ‘doing the right things’ and building your career or family around a specific set of norms and practices day in and day out. Then one day, you are pushed onto the hero’s journey with a wakeup call.  Maybe it’s a new boss that is hired and shakes things up at your long-standing job.  Perhaps it is a betrayal in a relationship and the very foundation below you has been shaken.  There could be the new presence of grief triggered by the unexpected loss or departure of a loved one from your life.  Or in a worst case, all of the above following a mental health crisis of a loved one, such as traumatic brain injury, PTSD, depression or bipolar disorder.  Whatever the catalyst, there is a major energetic push to open your eyes and reveal to you that the well trusted and well-built lanes of security are just an illusion.  They dissolve before your eyes, often in a matter of days.

It’s said that we are all three days from standing on the edge of a cliff.  A divorce, job loss, health crisis, or god forbid - all three and suddenly the anxiety and overwhelm becomes too much to handle.  We are faced with our own inner limitations and suddenly we need to forge a new path forward.  In the process we accept that security is an illusion and that while it makes us feel better, the cost of staying put and not growing outweighs the cost of change.  This in and of itself can trigger deep depression, anxiety and fear - especially if you have spent your entire life following the expectations of others and society to be ‘a good person’ or ‘a good mom’ or ‘a good daughter’.  It all comes crashing down like the flaming Tower card of tarot.       

For myself, I experienced many Tower moments over the years.  Especially once I became a mother.  I learned that I could not maintain security and be the perfect wife and mother while navigating health crisis after health crisis and building my career.  It was a fool’s agenda that was revealed to me over and over and over again.  

On one particular fool's errand, as I set out on my own hero’s journey to get some reprieve from the burnout and go on retreat to Mexico.  I was faced with the final stage of the illusion of security when I came face to face with my own mortality.  It all seemed so innocent at the time. Our meditation retreat had just ended, and we were celebrating our week of disconnection and returning to self.  I felt amazing and was genuinely happy. But something didn’t feel quite right.  I wanted to make the most of my trip and when a dear friend suggested dancing - I was in.  She was going through a recent breakup, and I couldn’t help but remember when my friends, once upon a time in Rio de Janeiro, did the same for me.  My ego told me that I was l paying it forward. 

As we stood on the street meeting some locals, shots were fired near us.  A motorcycle quickly sped by, and we ran into a dark restaurant to hide. More guns. Drunk people. Cartel. You get the scene. It was all very surreal.  This all took place less than a mile from my beach front hotel.  Had I not been sober and genuinely good in a crisis - we might not have made it home that night.  I discovered the next morning that two people were killed.  Even stranger still I had a lucid dream the week before playing out this very event.  Talk about precognition!  As a trained energy practitioner and intuitive reader, I knew there could be some risk in my travels. But I went anyway with the knowing that it was not ok to lose oneself entirely as so many naively do on the beaches of Mexico.   

I then spent the next 16 hours furiously trying to ‘escape’ from the country without locals, journalists or police stopping me from doing so.  In fact, there were no police or media or journalists, but I was convinced that if this ‘story’ leaked, my face would be all over social media and the news with a headline - American escapes death in Mexico.  In fact, that same headline appeared multiple times on my news feed that week.  Sadly, there was no coverage about the event. The local businesses covered up the bodies and the shooting so quickly, nearby restaurants didn’t even close down.  It was the craziest scene I have ever and may ever witness. In the end I made quite a few new friends who were also now convinced that security is in fact, an illusion.   We are not safe.  But in our beds in the United States or maybe Canada - we are in fact living under a false illusion.  Security can and will be taken from us at any time.  And you don’t need to travel to Mexico to figure that out.   

What drives us to shake free from the Illusion of Security?  

Maybe it’s the meditation, or the mushrooms?  

Perhaps it was how you stopped drinking alcohol and have replaced your morning coffee with well - mushrooms.  

Whatever it was, it changed you. You took those mushrooms and now you see beyond it all.  You see those parts of the job that hurt you and are burning you out.  You have allowed yourself to deepen into presence and can feel when others do not have your best interest in mind.  The true cost of security suddenly becomes clear.  It’s you that is suffering.  You are losing precious life force to continue in this job.  This house.  This family.  Maybe you’ve gotten a taste of this one weekend at a retreat you signed up for.  You know there is more for you than this.  The Illusion of Security starts to fade away, and you realize the cost of you staying and not changing is more than the cost of you facing the next Illusion.  

The Illusion of Control.  

 

Signs you are facing the Illusion of Control.

You search phrases like ‘mom is in control’, then quickly turn over $10,000 to someone you’ve never met because you trust their integrity and their process for signing you up.  

You hit rock bottom and have nothing left to do but surrender to the pain of it all.  

You feel lighter when things are ‘under your control’ and you feel chaos when things are out of your control.   

I spent my entire life building systems of control around me.  I was in fact - a controller.  Both in energy and profession.  I relied on the system to provide for me and give me an annual pay increase in the 10-15% range per year.  For almost 20 years. That’s right.  I was not an ordinary achiever. I was a high achieving go getter that started at the bottom and worked her way up.  I did not stop for anyone or anything.  Including myself.  Or my newborn.  Or my mentally ill partner.  I quickly burned-out clinging to the Illusion of Control because I believed in the next Illusion…    

The Illusion of Separation 

Signs you are facing the Illusion of Separation. 

You feel separate, apart or disconnected from everything.  Society at large.  Yourself even.  

Your identity shifts and changes.  You reveal yourself to some people but not others.  Maybe you even have more than one name that you use in different environments or businesses.  

You feel sadness, grief or depression and have ‘lost all hope’.   

You can only rely on yourself and no one else.  

You wonder how or if you will ever dream again. 

Then suddenly you shake through this separation and realize this is an illusion too.  You are connected.  You are always connected.  You are a living, breathing galaxy of chaos and light and darkness upon which the Illusion of Control and Security have you convinced that you are separate and alone and by default afraid. 

Upon revealing the final illusion, the Illusion of Separation, a new dimension or facet of emotion comes bounding through.  The dimension of Shame and the dimension of Resentment. 

You suddenly realize that when the Illusion of Separation falls away, that you feel immense shame and resentment at having ever been deluded in the first place.  

It should be called the Delusion of Ego if it had a name.   A name for the impounding moment of shame, capped by resentment that comes crashing down on you in the middle of Savasana.  

For me I was dumbstruck at the beauty of it all.  The melting of the heart, the expansion of the mind, and the knowing of the crown.  

Crying for days was an understatement.  This beauty.  This peace.  Why am I being shown this now, so late in my life?  Why me?  

Why not you?  

It’s not too late.  It was never too late.   We balance the dimensions of Shame and Resentment with acceptance and with a Great Pause.  We take Sacred Space, and we allow the universe to reveal to us what we have long overlooked due to the immense distraction that comes with career, parenthood, relationships and all of the above.  We allow others to look at us strangely and wonder, why is she doing that?  Why did she quit her successful career?  Why did she leave her long-term partnership?  Why did she travel to the ends of the earth, while I’m still stuck at home and being a good mom?  Follow your curiosity.  Follow the why.  Follow it all.  

It is never too late to say yes to a life of freedom.