Energy Codes

  

The codes 

When you wake up at 5:05pm on the 5th - now that’s flow.  This is following the perfect meditation at 4:44pm on 2/4/2022 - the perfect 4.  I am a four and am in flow. 

What does this mean?  Flow? Surrender?  To release control?  And if you don’t associate flow with surrender then you haven’t been in flow. 

Flow is a feeling of peace and calm, of natural gratitude, a state of being.  How can you explain Being in words?  You can’t.  

I’ve come to realize my superpowers are alchemy.  Like the shifting winds, we can step into an intention with a declaration and make it so.  The key is presence, true grounded presence. 

Be in your womb.  Your womb is the creative force of life.  It gives life and births it from nothing.  My husband looked at me yesterday and said, you’re not pregnant, are you?  I laughed out loud at the absurdity.  I was going to the Dr. on Monday, but I certainly didn't know to ask that.  I felt a purple glow all around me, as if my aura had lifted above me and turned fuchsia.  I can see colors.  It’s called synesthesia when two of your senses cross over each other.   Pockets of energy floating in the most nondescript locations, but always around people.   My own aura can expand and contract at will.  

What are the codes?  What’s happening? 

Calling in what you want.  It doesn’t have to be difficult or hard.  WE make it hard.  Should I this or that.  Will I yes or no.  How can I, oh my god I’ll never figure it out.  

STOP IT.  It doesn’t have to be hard. 

What do you want?  Not sure - feel into it.  How does it make you feel? 

This life of following and creating how you want to feel is foreign, a bit frightening but oh so rewarding when you get it right. 

I feel like I can’t truly express how it is that I’ve made it this far.  

It’s a steep climb she said.  I don’t want the competition, but I have leadership to offer, an intellect unmatched - it’s my physical being that just can’t do it any longer.  It is screaming no at me like I’ve never heard before.  Total stop.  

I could ask why.  Feel sad.  Depressed.  Or I could ask - what now?  Spirit guide me and show me the next right step. 

I’m constantly asking - show me the next right step and you know what - it never fucking comes in the form of a statement.  Christin - though shalt make dinner - preferably a light salmon carpaccio with olive oil and parsley.   NO.  It doesn’t say anything.  It’s rather like a being, a knowing, a just go kind of energy.  

I’m learning to shift energy - always revert back to a state of calm with all energy centers opened.  I remember when I first learned of chakras - actually started to pay attention to the nonsense - there were so many websites outlining the duality of the chakras - when in balance this, or when out of balance this - and it just didn’t fucking make sense!  See I am a doer for a reason.  I like to experience the energy firsthand.  

Have you ever seen Monet's water lilies?  If you have, you’ll know the scale of them is simply massive.  Each one spans 20+ feet across a canvas, next to two canvas’ of the same width and beauty. 

I’ve got blood on my hands and I’m giving it back - was it a walk in?  That time when I got back from the first float experience and my physical body couldn’t do anything but lay there. When my husband kept yelling at me, because he wasn’t in his body and couldn’t communicate.  Telling me where I should or should not ‘lay’ so that his energy and comfort were addressed before mine. 

I flipped - started yelling at him that I hated him and that he could die, and I would be happy.   I’m fairly certain the physical alchemical experience of die die die is not the godly usage of this power source that courses through my veins.  I think I literally stepped out and allowed something not good to step in.  It happens to my husband all the time.  When he’s hungry, tired and doesn’t have weed.  

You don’t have to listen to his source of alchemy.  You do get to listen to your own.  

Your way will be different than most.  It will not be understood.   Some will be jealous.  Some will tell you to fuck off or that they don’t understand.  You will want to try to make them understand.  

You will need to leave them behind.  They will never understand.  They will die trying. 

I think of them.  The women I’ve loved who have loved me.  I don’t want them to die or to be left behind.  

But this is my reality and I choose to believe they too will figure it out on their own terms.  That remaining happy and joyful is a state to be sustained not just in your 30s but for your entire life.  

They talk of 40 as over the hill, but that’s absurd.  Women still give birth at 40. They run marathons, and companies and have legions of children.  I realize now that this was my calling all along.  

The thoughts that raise to our level of awareness are put there for a reason.  We have the knowledge.  We may not understand it as the knowledge arrives, but as we lean into the energy it evokes it becomes wisdom.  

I’ve spent countless nights stepping into the Akashic records library seeking wisdom from beyond.  Searching for a past life, or an ancestor or a story that can guide me here, now.  

It isn’t until I have the key to unlock the wisdom that the knowledge is released.  And it comes at precisely the right time when I need it most.  I just have to ask, not push.  

Give me the wisdom now to do the next right thing.  

To ask for what I need and to offer support to those that need it most. 

But this perspective has been tried before.  I’ve lived in this do I coach, counsel or advise space many times.  I’ve coached, counseled and advised many.  I've also been the victim and the persecutor too.

But now it’s time to step into the space of mentorship. Of leadership.  Beyond. 

The codes are in the embodiment.